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|Wednesday, June 11th, 2008|
|You think your body is beauty...
YOUR PULSE IS WORTH MORE.
So I finished my senior year & graduated.
I go to cosmetology school at regency in Burnsville come October.
Things got better. A lot better. && I can truly say I'm happy now.
It's been a long time;; sorry... but so many things have happened, and life changes.
For those who haven't seen me irl as of late, here's some updated pics.
Got my eyebrow pierced, got my first tattoo. [The kanji symbol meaning 'beautiful,' on my right hip.]
Miss you all.
xoxo. Ash Current Mood: calm
|Friday, August 10th, 2007|
|~love all the people you hate to feel for~
So this past week has been hectic... in a good way mostly.
I've been working, so that means money for events such as the State Fair with friends & RenFest. I've gotten to see alot of my darlings recently, mostly Rachel, Rebecca, Lindsey, Travis, Nick, Myra & my Love [Mike]. I have to say, i love late night trips to my work to eat food and laugh about ridiculous things. Last night I stayed at Travis's with Mike, Siera & Nick. I got to wake up to Mike's gorgeous face and it made my heart melt <3 Lindsey & I decorated our Senior shirts. We decided to put on the back: "ALL YOU BASE ARE BELONG TO US" x3
Yeah, we're awesome.
-Ashes- Current Mood: happy
|Saturday, July 28th, 2007|
|=D It's what you do to me <3
So Mike is ahhmazing. He just makes my heart go crazy <3 :] I attempted Guitar Hero today and didn't fail half as badly. Which is pretty awesome. More facepainting today. And it turned out really well. I even made a few tips :D These make Ashley smile. Well...so do cute little children thanking me for painting their face. ^-^ So now I sit here with my baby, listening to Motion City Soundtrack & being all happy. (>nn)> *snuggles her Mike* :3 Tomorrow= Warped Tour!! ;D <3 It's going to rock your fxcking face off, betch. Sometimes it's good to live in Minnesota. ;]
-Ash Current Mood: giddy
|Wednesday, July 25th, 2007|
|Innocence Fallen Far
i wrote this awhile back & finally came up with a title.
Come with me, little dear
Take my hand and we'll fly
Kiss me with eyes closed so tight
Breathe into me your breath, sweet life
These tears I feel upon your skin
Irridescent rain we danced together
Among the stars and spirits envied us
The rain washing away this filth, our sin
Death is but a eternal calling
We walk along the bleeding path
Lost among a sea of disturbance
Fearing all that cuts into our core
Blood like rose petals washed away
The things we tried so hard to say
I'll hold you as the darkness nears
How I wish to take your pain.
Drowning, my sweet angel
You cannot breathe in this place
Light to darkness, we say good-bye
You know I'll see you one last time. Current Mood: uncomfortable
|Tuesday, July 24th, 2007|
|Vitamin R [feel the love, bby]
Wow....I really fail at keeping up with this x] note to self: stop failing it.
Hellooooo sunshine! [smile, our days are getting brighter]
life has been ubber busy, with work & friends, whatnot. I must say at least it keeps me going.
so there's this guy.... who i adore. we knew that already.
and there's this other guy...whom i'm severly attracted to in many ways. it's almost scary [our likenesses].
Sweet heartbeat, fall so far down.
I hate distance.
And it hates me back :]
<3~ Current Mood: indescribable
|Monday, April 9th, 2007|
|been a couple months...
I got caught up in school, friends, work, and love. But yeah, it seems I've returned yet again. x3 Spring Break was fun, I got to spend time with Mike and get in some hours at work as well as hang out with friends. Today was the start of 4th quarter, and I'm trying to stay focused and not fuck this up. I have this really bad procrastinating issue... ^^; eh heh. I was telling Damarra, Avery, Greg, Joe, and Evan at lunch about how a few weeks ago Mike and I got into a random discussion about how if everyone we're friends with were a STD, who would be which one. XD No, I'm not kidding. We actually thought about writing it down! ;D But we didn't. D: We should have. So now I'm waiting to go home and chill for 45 min. before I have to work ><; le sigh. I'll update again later.
Rinny Current Mood: okay
|Monday, January 22nd, 2007|
|~All I could say...~
...was "I'm sorry." A year and a half ago, Tegan broke my heart. After that, my love for him...died...he hurt me so badly. We stopped talking. He contacted me awhile back. I knew he was still in love with me, and that he would always love me. But I knew, on the inside, that I no longer felt like I had before. I'd found someone who loves me and treats me right, and it wasn't him. I lied to myself...I lied to him...I honestly thought, up until a few days ago, that I still loved him. But I wouldn't be with Mike if I did. I feel bad that I hurt him. He was the first person to really love me for me. And I thanked him for that. I cried as we hung, us both knowing it would be our last conversation. It was 1:30am. He's a hollow shell now. No one tried to save him... I did... but... then he shattered me. I picked myself up, but I had to be away from him. So there was no one to save him fromt he pain. He has nothing left to give. He's doing drugs and waiting to die. He said he's bored of life. He's experienced more pain than I know I could ever understand. Physically (from himself) and emotionally (from those he's loved and helped). *looks down* I know I have to let it go. I know I didn't do anything wrong. I hope someday he finds happiness. Even if it means in death. Current Mood: gloomy
|Tuesday, January 16th, 2007|
|It all turns to sunshine...dirty sunshine...
I feel like shit now. But I don't mind cause it's that time again. I'm a mess don't want to let you in.
Friday was Uriah's party...Mike and I slept over there. It was nice waking up to seeing his sweet face <3 *blushes* Tegan calls me at 1am on like...Sunday morning? I think. Can't remember. That....was a really weird conversation. He's like...convinced he loves me in a way no one else ever could. o.O uh-huh....yeah....crazy. He's soooooo jealous of Mike! It's almost comical. XD Note to self: in my next life, no psycho exes. <3-me.
*sigh* anyways, so finals are next week. >//< I'll do my best. ^-^ I fianlly have the internet back! Huzzah! ^.^ Score! And it's high-speed >.> <.< Mwahaha... ^^;; Mike says I'm going to be really happy but won't tell me why yet x3 Silly cuteness ^^ Current Mood: listless
|Friday, January 12th, 2007|
|*~you shine so beautiful...~*
Guess what? .....we have hi-speed internet at my house now!!!! <3333 wheeeeeeehooooooooooooo! *happy dance* I am so whee right now! Ha ha.... but I'm worrying about passing Chem. -_-; Blah. Fucking Tegan calls me at 4:30 in the am two days ago and when I call back to ask him why the hell he's calling me that late when he knows I have school, he doesn't answer. My guess was that he was either passed out from too much alcohol or blood loss. Don't ask. >_< Anyways, I'm off on my way to Chem. Then it's party time baby! Uriah's throwing a bash tonight and I don't plan on going home. xxxxxxx
;] Rin <3
Current Mood: giddy
|Tuesday, January 9th, 2007|
|I say shotgun, you say wedding <3
Okay, this computer is possessed. That or it's cursed to never OBEY ME!!!! >_<;; Grah... someone fetch me a priest! XD I'm making my own currency atm. It's fun and aggrivating at the same time. >>' On the radio this morning I heard there is a new drug out. It's also legal. Soemthing called "sally V" I think... it was so stupid! It's a plant in the mint family! And these dumb fucking teenagers are going and lighting it and smoking it to get 'a spiritual high.' What kind of bullshit is that?! It's a herb, people! Leave it be! You want a spiritual high? Go hang out with some weed using hippies! x3 Wow. Some people have waaaaay too much time on their hands. o_o Hugs, not drugs. <3
Rin Current Mood: weird
|Monday, January 8th, 2007|
|<3 beauty does exsist...i know that now.
Yes or No...
* You keep a diary: yes, along with my LJ
* You like to cook: mm hmm ^^ much so.
* You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: hm... I haven't told anyone that I used to stand in the rain and scream when I was upset. It calmed me down and hid my tears.
* You're in love: yes...<3
* You set your watch a few minutes ahead: ha ha I don't have one ;o
* You bite your fingernails: sadly. -_-; trying to stop
* You believe in love: now I do
* The prettiest person of the opposite sex you know: sam is man pretty :-p
* The weirdest person you know: we're all insane here ;)
* The Loudest Person you Know: Damarra XD
* Your close friends: Hmm...many. The ones I'm closest to are Rachel, Beth, Lindsey, Kendra, Anthony, and Mike
* Most Boring Teacher: My Graphics teacher ;[ he's nice but boring
* The Person that Knows the most about you? Beth or Rachel
* Your most overused phrase on IM: 'lol' and 'oh noes'
* Last image/thought you go to sleep with: usually Mike. <3 tee hee.
* Your best feature: my eyes and my ass
* Inside joke: muffin-y death!
* Take a shower everyday: ja! Almost always ;]
* Think you've been in love: I am, so yes
* Want to get married: Someday
* Have any tattoos? Not yet ^.^
* Get motion sickness: Not usually
* Think you're a health freak: Nope x3 *sugar nut*
* Get along with your parents: Sometimes
What Do You Think of when You See the Name...
* Ryan: sweetie inside and out ^-^
* Rob: dunno one
* Drew: great dancer
* Stephanie: dating someone waaaay too old for her XD
* Heather: *shudder* crazy ass bitch...
* Aaron: Funny little bugger
* Amy: cute lil' emo girl
* Paul: makes me think of my douchebag ex
* Eve: meh
* John: Ha ha he can be so emo....
* Alex: stalker-esque o.O
* Justin: my old crush </3
* Jamie: this chick form school I know but don't talk to much
* Ricky: um.....cupcakes? o.o
* Jack: Tegan
Screen Names: AOL; EmpathicBeauty MSN; squeeky_spooky (hotmail)
Sign: Sagittarius... and it's so like me x3
Natural Hair Color: chesnut brown
Current Hair Color: black
Eye Color: hazel...they look amber in pictures and change slightly with the moon phases and seasons
* Number: 4
* Color: crimson red
* Day: Saturday
* Month: June or December
* Song: 'Possession' by Evans Blue
*Food: ice cream
* Season: Summer
* Drink: Cream Soda
* Veggie: Potatoes
* Cuddle or Make Out: cudlding
* Chocolate Milk or Hot Chocolate: hot chocolate
* Milk, Dark, or White Chocolate: dark
* Vanilla or Chocolate: chocolate
In the Last 24 Hours, Have You...
* Cried: no
* Helped Someone: helped out david by covering his shift at work
* Bought Something: yes, a top, lace gloves, two promise rings (one for me, one for my love), and a Little Apple doll
* Gone to the Movies: yes
* Gone out for Dinner: nope
* Said "I Love You": yes, to my family and my Mike
* Written a Real Letter: nope
* Talked to an Ex: yes
* Missed an Ex: no
* Written in a Journal: LJ
* Had a Serious Talk: with my bf
* Missed Someone: my Beth :[ she's in St.Paul
* Hugged Someone: many times
* Fought With Your Parents: no
* Fought With a Friend: luckily no :]
1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE?
2. YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING?
My new top (it's kimono style) or my lolita-style black dress
3. FAVORITE FEATURE OF OPPOSITE SEX?
pale, smooth skin, smiles
4. WHAT'S THE LAST CD THAT YOU BOUGHT?
Evans Blue and Thirty Seconds To Mars
5. WHERE IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE?
a friends house or my room
6. WHERE'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE PLACE TO BE?
7. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO BE MASSAGED?
neck and back
8. WHAT'S MOST IMPORTANT, STRONG IN MIND OR STRONG BODY?
9. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE IN THE MORNING?
school days: 6am weekends: depends on work
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE?
11. WHAT MAKES YOU REALLY ANGRY?
ignorance, homophobia, egos
12. IF YOU COULD PLAY ANY INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
cello, again. but i love to sing. that's my true passion.
13. FAVORITE COLOR?
14. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR OR SUV?
neither so ha :p
15. FAVORITE CHILDREN'S BOOK?
6. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
17. WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE?
18. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPER POWER WHAT WOULD IT BE?
moving through solid objects
19. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT?
a thorny rose with the japanese symbol for 'love'
20. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
not at all XD
21. THE ONE PERSON FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO?
22. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
23. WHAT'S IN THE TRUNK OF YOUR CAR?
don't have one yet ;]
24. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER?
hamburger. eww, raw fish x3 Current Mood: crazy
|Wednesday, January 3rd, 2007|
|~Winter Break's end...
So I'm back at school starting today. It was nice to have some time away from school. I needed it. I got to hang with friends most of it, (when not working) and had a lovely New Years Eve, spent with my boyfriend, his dad, his dad's gf, sister, and her three friends. We went to AmericInn. Lots of swimming, champagne, and food. <3 x3 The funny part is that we met a crazy woman. Literally. She kissed Tahsa, Mike's 13-year-old sister, on the lips! And she tried to put moves on me and Jessi, but we told her to back off. Mike's dad kicked her wasted ass out of our room (she'd come up for coktails)and she was told not to come around again. We found out kater that she fucked a guy on the staircase, as well as supposedly met up with a guy who had three prostitutes in his room. Ha ha, she was a funny drunk. Other than that, things went smoothly and happy. <3 Current Mood: flirty
|Wednesday, December 20th, 2006|
|It Can't Rain All The Time
Mike gave me the sweetest note today.... I almost cried... I don't really know what to say. So I will say this:
A building get torched. All that is left is ashes. I used to think that it is true about everything - family, friends, feelings - but now I know that sometimes if love proves real, and two people are meant to be together, nothing can keep them apart.
If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn. People die. But real love lives forever. Current Mood: loved
|Monday, December 18th, 2006|
|Where am I going?
Drowning she is beautiful
Clear liquid embraces her worn self
Aquamarine she wanted to be
A mermaid floating above the water
Sweet salt taste on her tongue
Open her eyes and see a blur
Mists of clear blue stretch forever
Wind that dances on top of the sea
Drink of this and you shall live
Sweet goddess taste the liquid of life.
|Monday, December 11th, 2006|
|13 hours of work can mean death
I worked 8 hours Saturday (that sucked royally, thnak you.) and 5 yesterday. x3 Friday was roller skating for my b-day! No, no one died, but a group of kids pulled in front of my boyfriend and I at the last second and we almost tripped and fell on them XD Luckily, I have good balance. >.< Mike dedicated "Lips Of An Angel" to me <3 and my friends made sure the rink DJ sang "Hpapy Birthday" to me >_<;; Geh.... that was scary xp x_X I skipped Chem on Friday...I'm trying to drop the class but I don't think they'll let me T.T Blah.
<3 Rin Current Mood: busy
|Friday, December 8th, 2006|
|roller skating may be deadly x3
so for my bday we're going roller skating at Skateville because we're spiffy like that XD (by 'we' I mean like... 15 of my friends and I) and some of the girls are sleeping over tonight. ^-^ Whee! I haven't been rollerskating in awhile so I'm excited. :3 It'll be amusing to see some of my friends going whoosh across the rink XP *grins* :D Not quite sure what'll happen after that. Who knows :o *psycho music ensues* >_< Mmkay... *ninja sneak* Current Mood: mischievous
|Wednesday, December 6th, 2006|
|Why can't I breathe...
Today feels heavy. I don't feel like myself. It's like I'm underwater and I'm drowning... it's hard to breathe. I haven't felt like this in months... *laughs* Grams had her hsiterectomy on the 13th... I'm going to stay with Vel that week I hope. I need to get away. I like dreaming. I can be here but be far away. It's so... beautiful.... Current Mood: worried
|Tuesday, December 5th, 2006|
So yesterday was my 17th birthday. ^-^ It was really nice. I brought candy canes to school (wh00, sugar!) and went out to dinner w/ my Dad and boyfriend so they could meet. It went really well and I'm so glad. Then Mike came back to my house and we watched Family Guy and danced in the dark downstairs to "Kiss From A Rose." It was romantic <3 *blushes* He makes me feel like the only girl in the world.... *laughs* I'm so f***ing sentimental sometimes it makes me giggle. XD Current Mood: cheerful
|Friday, December 1st, 2006|
|Oh snap! XD
So it's the weekend.... yay! <3 I'm hella tired and my cramps are terrible x3 blah. I dunno what I'm doing this weekend... but my b-day is on Monday! 8:00pm sharp, hee hee. ^-^ My dad is taking Mike & I out to dinner and then I'm going to see a movie or something w/ Mike. Then I have my party next weekend... ha ha that'll be interesting XD Current Mood: contemplative
|Monday, November 27th, 2006|
|le gasp o.O
Thanksgiving was okay, had family over... ha ha at work yesterday this woman got mad at me because I screwed something up on the cash register and got bitchy claling me 'hopeless' and shit. I tried to ignore it but I was already stressed out and she was taking it too far. I told her she had no right to disrespect me. She started yelling at me saying 'you have some nerve!' Well maybe I do, but she had some nerve to be saying the crap she did. Everyone makes mistakes. She needs to shut the f**k up and deal. >_<; My manager is upset with me but I don't care. I don't regret it. I'd say it again. There's something I'm worried about and I wish I could say what but I can't... gomen. -_- Current Mood: worried